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I'll be back!
Thank you for your emails and comments and if anyone is still reading this, I am sorry for the silence. I thought writing random thoughts about life, love, work, friends, family would be easy but this hasn't been.
There are days that I just want to hide. Writing anything sounds like the most impossible of tasks. But I am getting my shit together, as someone said to me today.
So in the current spirit of things on TMHO, I will just write!
To quote a crap line from a crap movie, I'll be......
By: tmhoblogger (06 October 2009)
To call or not to call?
The poem below The Door written by TMHOgirl and posted in Life describes exactly how I feel.
I have spent the weekend wondering whether to call Smart, even just to enquire how the job hunting is going and to make sure that he is fine. I stare at his number on my phone, not that I need to, it is committed in my head.
Many times I go over conversations we could have, or how I could start the phone call, and many times, I choose not to call.
He has my number.......
By: tmhoblogger (03 August 2009)
The Others
So I got dumped by Smart but the world seems to be getting along just fine without any care in the world for the torment and angst in my head. The darkness that has the descended upon me, the pain that feels as if my heart is being torn, very slowly from the very essence of its being. The sleepless nights, the loss of appetite, the sore head, sore eyes, the inability to function.
I have also lost the ability to indulge in chocolates or ice cream, soggy salty take-outs to......
By: tmhoblogger (31 July 2009)
Those Empty Feelings
When you are recovering from a broken heart, the weekends are the worst times. There is nothing to distract you from your thoughts, from yourself, from your longings for your lost love, lost friendship, lost intimacy. They are also the longest two days ever.
Gone are the days of longing for Fridays, so that you could spend a lazy Saturday morning in your lover's arms, read the Sunday papers together, stroll around London coffee shops or Sunday markets, arms linked in togetherness.
Weekends are empty, long, empty, longing for warm loving embraces,......
By: tmhoblogger (26 July 2009)
My Credit Crunched Romance
I am sorry I have been away for a while and I thank you all for your messages.
The title of this post probably says it all. Smart and I did not survive the current economic climate. He was made redundant, so much for being one of the brightest stars in the City.
He in turn decided that his priority was finding a new position and ended our relationship. If I am honest with myself, things have soured between us since impending redundancies were announced.
Sadly, our friendship has not survived our break-up......
By: tmhoblogger (23 July 2009)
Life has no meaning
I am saddened by Michael Jackson's death.
It makes all my angst and drama so irrelevant. Life is just so short and we all have to grab whatever happiness we can get with both hands.
RIP Michael and thanks for the music.......
By: tmhoblogger (26 June 2009)
Grumpy Smart
I mentioned about the redundancies and the Blonde's magical powers in the previous blog To Job or not to job. Smart has been very worried about his job because his department is one of the ones hit hard. And whilst the Company are making a song and dance about how they will support those being redundant, the consultation process and all that has been such an extremely slow process.
Of course I have tried many times to reassure Smart that as one of the brightest stars in the City he will......
By: tmhoblogger (11 June 2009)
The Toad, the Hero
The Blonde and I had a rare moment this morning. You know, that moment when someone feels you, and you are happy that they totally get what you are thinking.
The Toad informed us in our team meeting that we were not affected by the redundancies, something the Blonde confirmed yesterday. I say "confirmed" because experience has taught me never to doubt the Blonde's sources, as I have to give it to the girl, she works hard for her money, ehm, sources.
So today, the Toad looked even more pompous and arrogant......
By: tmhoblogger (28 May 2009)
To Job or not to Job?
Blonde: We are fine
Me: [Looks confused – say what?]
Blonde: [Rare moment of recognition of her inability to make any sense offers some explanation.] The job thing.
Me: The job thing? [Genuinely clueless]
Blonde: [Shakes her head as I am obviously not fast enough to follow her warped excuse for confirmation.] The redundancy.
Me: We are not affected by the redundancy?
Blonde: Yes, we are both fine.
Me: [Against my better judgment, and clearly not entirely sure that I want to know the source of the Blonde's knowledge] But how do you know?
Blonde: [Smiles mysteriously and......
By: tmhoblogger (27 May 2009)
Totally Speechless Part 2
My blog has been neglected mostly because redundancies were finally announced after months of rumours. So it looks like most people all over the world, I am waiting to hear whether I will have a job in the near future. Sure, I hate my job, but the idea of being unemployed in the climate, scares the living daylight out of me.
But enough of that.
Last week, I posted that I was totally speechless. My loss of my oral faculty was because after nearly a year (I could tell you the exact......
By: tmhoblogger (22 May 2009)